Unemployed Again

had to tile it something.  I'm sitting watching HGTV wishing I had some more money.  I want new shelving in my place.  Not fancy stuff, just some sturdier stuff to replace some of what I've got.  I do have those cubbies and I love them.  I think I may paint them.  I just got a desk that I may paint too.  Have to wait till it stops raining though.  My  neighbor needs to do some painting too so we're probably going to have a little painting party.

I can't decide what to do will all my furniture.  I don't want to get rid of the nice chair I have but it takes up quite a bit of space.  I've been thinking of putting it in my bedroom but I don't know where in my room I'd put it as that space is kind of full too. 

Basically I like stuff but can't afford the second bedroom I need/want.  Plus I like living right next to my current neighbor.  So maybe it's a studio needed.  But then it's harder to get work done in the way I do it.  I'm sure there's a way, I just haven't figured it out yet.  I need to better organize the extra closet in my bedroom.

I also have to get rid of the stuff I don't need or want anymore.  I'm sure someone needs what I have and is willing to pay for it.  But how long am I willing to sit with this stuff in my place.  Well there is an arguement to be made that I've sat with it this long I can sit with it till I find it a new home.

Blah.

Hungry now.

Update

I can't decide about dance class.  I like going but it isn't exactly a convent time for me.  Not sure what would be a truly good time though.  Monday nights, or possibly Sunday.  Basically a day when I'm not working.  Then I don't have to worry about Lego.  I do worry about him when I'm at work, but not nearly as much as on the nights when I have class.  I'm gone for so long.  And actually not being home is a consideration for my self.  It makes the day really long.  I mean I like dance and all.  I have no idea.  Plus it's one less day I could potentially hang out with friends.  This week especially.  First date potential, second date potential, seeing two different friends I don't get to see enough.  And then dance.  Five items and four days.  Someone's getting shafted.  And that's with out a night for myself.  Unless you count dance class, which I don't really.  A night to my self is one where I can sit back with some dinner and watch tv and do nothing productive.

I have no idea what to make for dinner tonight.

Ok, so there's a moment in Pirates 3 when Cuttler Becket is on his shit as it is blowing up around him where you can spot a bobie pin in one of his curls.  I know I should be paying attention to all the grand explosions in the end of the epic battle but I just can't get over the fact that you can see his frickin bobie pin.    Ok, so it's really hard to see on a regular tv and most people wouldn't have noticed it, and probably didn't, even on the big screen in the theatre, but still.  This couldn't have been the wig person's first gig.  Ok, pet peave rant done.

My pussy doesn't get nearly enough attention. 

I'm hungry.  Kind of wish I had some silkin tofu.  But I ate the last block the other night and don't have any more food stamps.  It's not like I don't have other food, it's just it makes Roman so much better, and more filling.  Ok so it just makes it more filling.  But that's the point here.  To be filled.  In many ways.

I am a bit pickey  though.  Not just anyone will do. And there is a good chance that it may take a little bit of getting to know one another before any filling can take place.  But I think that's over all a good thing. 

Well time to find food.

Good Evening, ok almost morning

I don't think it's morning till you see the sun come up and you've been up all night, or you've woken up.  I think it's still night even at 1am if you haven't yet gone to bed.  If you work at night then it's a totally different bag of fish; so I'll let you decide when it's morning for you and when it's still night.

In other news I love my job.  And my dog doesn't get enough play time, but that's cuse I work.  Ah the trade offs we have.

I've been freaking out a little bit recently about what would normally be small stupid stuff.  I guess I'm more stressed then I though.  I'm hoping that as I get into the routine of work during the week things will start to feel better.  That and as I find a way to feel lest 'romantically' lonely.  Haven't completely decided how to do that yet.

I had a though and now it's all gone.  Oh well.

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Yeah, still can't think of what it is.

Oh, my neighbor is going to help me with cleaning up my place tomorrow.  It's getting really out of hand and I just haven't done anything about it.  I'm not sure if it's the time or the inclination, but I can't stand it anymore and I'm not sure how to even begin. 

I like babysitting for her.  Her son is 6 months old now and he's kind of fussy, so that part isn't so fun, but it gives me something direct to do so I don't feel as overwhelmed and useless sitting around my place on my days off.  It also means I don't get as much done around the house as I could (yes I call my appt my house) but I'm not entirely sure that if I weren't babysitting I would get all that much done.  And I feel good for helping her our.  She's in a tough spot and is financially strapped and I don't really feel like I'm giving up much by doing this for her.  Maybe a few hours of sleep, but I just am smart about it and take naps when he does.

Ok, I think I want to keep rambeing, but I also want to sleep.  I'm going to choose the sleep option.

A little drunk

Considering the blankness of my mind I'm surprised I want to blog.  Oh well. 

Oh, I apologize in advance for any spelling or typo errors.  Yes I know there is spell check when typing these entries, but that doesn't mean I'll choose the right word, or type the correct word in there.  I may type a different word in place of what I mean and it may be correctly spelled for what it is, just not the right word.

Well as you may have guessed by the title of this post I'm a little drunk at the moment.  Had a few with my friend.  She needed a drink and I needed company, so we hung out for a while. 

She was my back up plan as I was hoping one of my other friend would be free.  No that I don't like my neighbor or consider her a friend; it's just that with my other friends nakedness would have been part of the evening and when there is nakedness there is also various sexual activities. 

I need to get laid.  But don't most of us?  One could argue that if I really wanted to get laid I could have achieved my goal, but I don't just want to take anyone home.  I though at one point in the recent past that that would be good, but I have discovered that I don't really want to do that.  I like sex, but it's more then that.  Sometimes not much more, but anyway.  There's a trust factor.  I want to know the person I'm fucking isn't a complete douche.  I like to know I can trust them on some basic level as well as be able to hold a conversation with them. 

I like to talk (in case you haven't noticed).  And while I am generally tired after sex I also like to share more then just bodily fluids with the other person.

Lego isn't the best dog in the world.  If he was he wouldn't bark and jump on everyone.  But he is very friendly and is good with babies and children, which to me is a big plus.

Ok, my head feels heavy now, I'm going to go to bed.

Shadowrun in the morning.  Need to be semi awake for that.  At least need to be awake enough to drive and read english.  Anything more then that is asking too much on a Saturday (now a day off for me).

First One

Ok, so here is the first post of my blog.  I'm sitting here watching Star Trek TNG discovering that Data shouldn't be allowed to date.  At least pre-emotion chip.    I really should make dinner and/or play with Lego.  I'm hungry and Lego is finding it hard to leave me alone.

The idea of having a drink is very appealing but I'm already quite tired and if I have any alcohol I'll only become more tired.  Same problem with the shower that sounds quite good.  I think I'll shower just before bed then I'll be able to fall asleep all worm and clean.  And full.  Once I get up from the couch to make food.

The problem is that if I make food I'll have to clean dishes.  Not only that but I'll have to clean dishes to even start to cook.  It's really annoying not having a dishwasher for the small every day stuff.  I don't mind washing the big pots and pans, but it's all the silverware and plates and bowls that get tedious, not to mention pile up in the sink. 

Ok, too hungry to ignore food anymore.  At least food is easy.